Today my blog passed the 1000 views mark. Hooray! It took half a year but who’s counting? I am very happy that my words have been read. Not that I have anything that earth-shaking to say but at least if I ever do I’ll know that at least a few people will know…
Thanks for reading. Stop by again soon.
MJ
Dating sites are almost always a disappointment. There are so many unattractive people out there. And if they aren’t unattractive, they drink (a lot – or so they boast). From the cheesey guy you’d never speak to in a bar, to the married guy who is looking for something on the side (I know, I’ve met one of those losers – his marital status hidden from me until the actual meeting), it just goes to show that finding someone on those sites is like hunting for a needle in a haystack. And God help you if you’re a female and you post your photo – the abuse is unbelievable. There is still an element of fun if you aren’t serious about finding someone however. Dating sites just aren’t the place to go if you are.
I remember trying to sign up for one awhile back and they rejected me. Didn’t know that could happen! It was quite a funny surprize. They said they didn’t think they could help me. Well duh. What site ever has? (The only time I ever met a person online and developed a friendship was a complete fluke. I found his blog by accident. Which is probably the way it should be. And even though that didn’t work out that great, at least I am glad to know him and think he is a wonderful person.) So anyways, that site rejected me and I thought ‘well great, I really am a loser’. That is until my brother investigated the site and determined that it was a Christian-type organization. No doubt I should have realized this by all their questions about my religion – of which I have a very personal style. I definitely didn’t answer the questions like a good God-fearing Christian woman. I’m a weirdo and I know it. Moderately unconventional and definitely open-minded. Doesn’t mix well with the Christian set. So I felt better after that little revelation (pardon the pun).
So enough of that. I’ll just continue on looking at interesting blogs and talking to people that way. Which begs the question why I haven’t talked to anyone through this blog – yet. Because it’s not very interesting is my conclusion. I mean look how many times I’ve used the word ‘interesting’ in this paragraph. It’s certainly not one of those splashy, mosaics of sight and sound that one sees on facebook or myspace. Some of those really annoy me because my computer is slow and sometimes if I hit the wrong page it takes forever to open because some schmo decided he had to have music and graphics and a full-length video to describe who he really is. Annoying.
Okay, okay, enough griping already. There’s a real world out there somewhere. I’ve heard rumors about it online.
I know this guy who has a blog. And on this blog he talks about all the things in in life, including his friends, family and lovers. But despite the time and effort I have spent getting to know him he has never mentioned me. It’s like I didn’t pass the test (which he actually referred to when I met him). It’s not a good feeling. I know I should have the confidence to see it as a glitch in his own personality but I don’t. I see it as a personal failure. I see it as not being good enough. I must be inadequate emotionally, physically, pschologically, or intellectually. Perhaps a combination of all four. According to him I have a tendency to feel sorry for myself. Perhaps so, but I think there are worse things one could have as a personality trait. Like being an arrogant ass. Anyways, I digress.
What to do?
Cut all (imaginary) ties?
Plug away and hope for change?
Pretend I don’t care?
Post a blog and wait for good advice?
I guess time will tell. I just hope I hear it and do the right thing.
