I’m going through and emotional crisis greater than any I have ever known. My parents wouldn’t be thrilled to hear it as they are not fond of the source of my anxiety.
There are many things to consider in matters of the heart. I used to think that when the time came to make a commitment, it would be an easy choice. There would be no self-doubt, no worrying about the future, nothing but happiness and everything falling into place. But it’s not like that at all – at least not for me. For me it’s all negative and no positive.
I was given a choice – and it was all or nothing. I chose nothing, but part of me is now in agony – completely convinced that I made the worst decision of my life. And how ironic would that be – finally choosing to not be with someone and it’s the wrong decision, when every other time I chose to be with someone and that was the wrong decision.
I am so confused and it’s not like me to air my dirty laundry, but I figured an explanation was in order for anything weird I might say, or do in the near future (like this post ha ha). I am not sleeping well, I’m not thinking well, and I’m just plain miserable.
